Bismihi ta'ala 

Protection from Almighty God will always be with us, and we find the Almighty will always be there to give us the strength and will-power to overcome hardships and difficulties.

Your struggle is indeed a difficult struggle, and therefore with abusive relationships it is always important to try and realise that the cycle of abuse must stop. You need to gain confidence in yourself that you are able to continue living with honour and dignity, and you deserve better than to be treated in such a way.

Build your self-esteem by speaking to professionals in this field, and get help in any way you can.

Your courage is there, you just need to find it and empower yourself. Once you put a stop to this, you will realise that you could have done it a long time ago. 

Always have hope and know that many will come to your aid once you extend your hand for support.

Please watch this short video clip, and try to find further positive material that will assist you:

Wassalam